Day 2 was hard, not so much detox wise, but life wise. People suck. I mean, no all people, but people that you think care about you or who you think you can trust and then BAM! they treat you with such disrespect. I hate that. I know that I'm guilty of being a sucky person at times, but I usually fess up to it and swallow my pride and apologize...or call it quits with the person so there isn't any animosity lingering. Anyway, I've just encountered a few very challenging personal days.
Now for this eating situation. I'm a champ and queen of justification...justification of why I should or why I shouldn't do something. I'm fading on this detox. Christmas said the Modifier plan was the hardest and she, yet again, was correct. I am going to continue to detox with no sugar, alcohol or processed foods and be conscience of the number of bricks I'm eating, but I'm adding in the soft dairy and good grains that I'm allowed if on the Maintainer plan. I think this will help me tremendously. Still eating well, just not "primo" clean. Then, when it isn't the week before testing, end of the school year chaos, or just plain crazy, I'll try the Modifier again. Am I quitting? No. Am I adjusting? Yes. Did I justify to myself that it is okay? Yes, because what I am going to be eating is SO much better for me than my last supper of McDonald's and Dairy Queen.
Confession over. Thinking good thoughts for those people that suck and don't know how to be brave and courageous in their relationships. Going to go sweat a little at workout and add some flare to my 4 block dinner tonight and then I'll move on to tomorrow and the focus on the new blessings it has to offer.
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